App for Health

The numb feeling somehow catapulted from no feelings to extreme over emotion. Every emotion humanly possible ran through my veins like lightening. When I was happy, I was overjoyed to the extent of hysterical laughter. A simple scrape or bump on my children would instill a fear in me so deep it is unimaginable. I recall a night when my youngest son was sick. I lay in his bed with my hand touching his chest to comfort myself. I knew he was alright, but it scared me so fiercely that I literally shook. I wondered if this feeling was only in my head until my son asked me to stop moving the bed. It was making sleep difficult.

If you can avoid carrying too much water, you’ll enjoy a far lighter pack. Your ability to find safe water and know how and when to treat it is a valuable skill. Pathogens can sometimes be found in water that seems safe. Much of the water we find outdoors is safe, especially at high elevations and when you’re near the original source. Always consider what is upstream and err on the side of caution if you don’t know what you are above. Does the water look clear? Don’t worry too much about small animal life in the water. Worry more if there isn’t any life in the water and ask why.

I just knew someone would get hurt. We wouldn’t have enough food. My son wouldn’t like his presents. The carpet wasn’t clean enough. Whatever I could worry about haunted me. By the day of the party, I was clearly manic. Couldn’t sit down. I had to keep moving. Cleaning, cooking, shepherding the children, whatever helped.